R.O.S.E

Perpisahan tu menyakitkan.  It makes us feel that ' life sucks'. Jujur ana dah terbiasa berpisah dari orang. Ana yang buat pilihan tu. Maybe sebab tu ana dah tak terasa apa kot.  And now bila orang yang lari dari ana..  Ana termangu. Terkedu. Terkaku. Dramatic much? But yeah. Bila dah rasa kesakitan perpisahan it makes me think sanggup ke nak buat macam ni kat orang lain???? It hurts. Although we know that we are going to depart one day. It. Just. Hurts. OK? Walau apapun untuk sahabat-sahabat yang dah berpisah jauh dari mata tapi dekat di hati (selagi dekat dengan Illahi) . I just one to say one thing "احبكن في الله ابدا ابدا. ارجي الله ان اقابلكن في الجنة عند يوم ال...

Imam Abu Hanifah pernah lalu dekat tepi longakang. Dan dia ternampak seorang budak kecil yang memakai terompah kayu. Maka Imam Abu Hanifah pun menegurnya, "Hati-hati wahai budak. Jangan sampai tergelincir" Budak itu pun berkata, "Terima kasih kerana mengingatkan saya. Apakah nama abang?" "Nu'man." Salah satu gelaran Imam Abu Hanifah. "Imamul A'zhom." Imam Agung. Gelaran Imam Abu Hanifah yang lain. "Itulah apa yang orang lain gelarkanku. Aku tak meminta pun gelaran sedemikian." "Wahai إمام  Al-A'zhom, sekiranya saya tak berhati-hati menjaga terompah ini nescaya saya boleh terjatuh ke dalam longkang. Tetapi jika abang tidak berhati-hati menjaga gelaran abang nescaya abang boleh terjatuh ke dalam neraka." Al-Hidayah TV3 #sentap Responsibility is never easy.

Heya people, that day i went to melaka with my schoolmates for 2 days: Tuesday and Wednesday. Guess where we went to? Obviously that's not me. Ciplak gambar kat google images="> Lebih kurang camnila vila kitorang. Again, this is another gambar from google images. Sorry, i'm not the type to ambik gambar. Well, someone i knew once said, "Kenangan yang tersimpan dalam hati lebih berharga daripada yang tersimpan dalam kamera." Very true,no? Well, she actually said it so people would focus during our tazkirah session dari dok klik sana klik sini. But, all the same. If I can use it for my defense, then I would. And I think she regretted saying that. Because later on when she wanted to pictures with me, I said no with that being my hujah. Haha. Right in her face, I did. Those two days were some of the best days in my life. Not just for the fact that I went to Galeri Khat, tidur kat vila, mandi-manda kat A'Famosa and not even naik the Taming Sari. But...

  Just read two books about the fall of Islam. Mustafa Kamal Ataturk and Runtuhnya Islam Andalusia (Isabella). URGGHHHH!!!! That was me tarik-ing my rambut in frustration. How, how, how can Islam jatuh macam tu?! That was Andalusia and Turkey kotttt!!!!! Negara kebanggaan Islam. And both ditumbangkan oleh orang Yahudi Dumanah, Presiden Mustafa dan orang Kristian, Ratu Isabella. If you go to the west, they would say these two were the most amazing heroes of all time. Pengubah tamadun manusia alaf 19/20. Like, what the..? How licik can the 'kuffars' be?! And why am I frustrated? Sebab Islam dah jatuh 3 Mac 1924. Dah lama dah. Years hve passed Decades! Dah nak a century dah pun. Tapi sampai bila? Bila Islam nak bangkit? Bila dah takde negara Islam langsung? Sekarang dah ada ISIS. Lagi la dunia benci Islam. So my muslim friends, mari bersatu! Kita MASIH satu ummah, kawan-kawan! Let's do this! Bangkitkan Islam. Melakar sejarah. Terutamanya orang Malaysia (so racist but I am...

Assalamualaikum guys. Setelah lama sunyi menyepi, I think I have a new entry. I want to put my target here. Why? Bukan nak brag tapi nak letakkan target. (Well, duh) No, wait. Ok, let me susun balik ayat tu. I want to share my target with the world. So, kalau ana tak dapat tuaikan ana rasa malu. So ana akan paksa diri  untuk tunaikan. Make sense? Kalau tak faham gak, baca je byk kali sampai faham. Peace ;) Okay, Chocolateholic's Life Target by 2019  2016- habis 20 juzu dan latih sifat kepimpinan 2017- khatam 30 juzu' saba' dan murojaah  2018- publish my first novel 'TRUST"  2019- SPM minimum 10A+ So that's my target. InsyaAllah I'll make it. Amin. And i need to constantly remind myself that this is all for Allah. Tajdid and tetapkan niat dan hati. Ugh, kenapa la ni bunyi macam baru lepas pergi kursus قيادة (kepimpinan)?????? ok, bye for now.

Assalamualaikum. So, sekarang ni tengah cuti wajib balik... and I'd like to make a wish. A BIRTHDAY wish. Attention to the people of this Earth!! 10 Mei nanti birthday a sweet angelic junior of mine, Nur Alidya binti Muhammad Hazha!!! Happy birthday!!! Hehe. Saje mention dalam blog ni. Biar satu dunia tau ;) Dan saje cakap awal-awal. Lusa balik asrama dah takde internet. Haha. Okay, now nak kenalkan cket Alidya ni pada dunia. Tapi bila fikir balik tak nak la pulak mencapabkan dia. Sian dia. :D Jap,  before I end this entry. Nak mention la jugak kakak-kakak dia. Kakak sulung dia (my sahabat tercinta until syurga), Nur Alia. Birthday dah lepas. 13 Mac. (I tried to prank her but seriously people, epic failure with a big e and f) Kakak kedua dia, Nur Allisa. Birthday dia 24 Jan (sebulan selepas Christmas). Masa tu dia kat sekolah laen. So, tula family dia. They are all very nice people. Sanah helwah to each and every one of you. May our ukhuwah last till paradise. A...

Hai korang. Tau tak I was actually pretty bored cuti dis taon lepas. So I actually thought of a way to fill my boredom. And guess what I discovered???? Jeng3x. I actually love music. Like, real hardcore LOVE. So using the creativity of my upper brain, I actually made this song. Pernah dengar lagu 'Look How High We Can Fly' ? Kalau tak pernah, you'd better listen to it now. Coz I changed the lyrics and it's pretty cool. So here we go... Look How Peaceful I Am I bought a machine X-ray From the online shop ebay But still i do not know In my heart i feel empty I want to fill inside of me Can i buy it in a store And now i find islam No going back To my old life Look how peaceful i am Look how peaceful i am I just love Allah now Through the beauty of islam We're going to get jannah Together as one ummah Look how peaceful i am Obey orders from Allah Follow Rasulullah My love for Allah suddenly grows Why don't we read Qoran It IS the li...

Assalamualaikum semuaaaaaa!!!!! I am so happy today. Over the moon! I opened a blog of my friend this morning and she posted this huge picture in her blog. And I was like, my friend won an award! Wowwwww!!!!!!! Okay, so her name is Nabihah Yusran (or as she calls herself Nabihah Moran =}) and she actually tagged me and I was like 'what?????? ME?' Terkejut gila wehhh plus rasa malu sikit la. So, introduction sikit, Liebster Award ni untuk blog-blog yang tak sampai 200 followers pun. And my blog, 50 pun tak sampai okey. Sedih tak? So yeah, the fact that she tagged me made my mind go 'KEBABOOOM!!!!!!!' Thank you, Sis Biehah... Okay. To business. I have to do a few things to get this award; 1. Thank your Liebster Award presenter on your blog and link back to the blogger Nabihah's blog is beehascraft.blogspot.com tau everyone!!! Check / 2. Copy & Paste the award to your blog Check /      (Gambar gigantic kat atas tu la awardnya.) 3. Answer 6 questions...

I miss my SCHOOLLLLLL... Today is the ninth day of December and it's still the holidays. Boooo....... Like, seriously I actually hate this holiday. For some reasons. And it is SO not because of me being a nerd or anything. Like, that is so juvenile. *Rolling eyes* I've seriously got some problems. Even being a facilitator wouldn't even help my boredom. I'm turning sixteen next year. And for that reason I don't have Biology, Physics nor Chemistry books I can study or even revise. It's making me crazy. I know. You guys must be thinking: Why create a big fuss over holidays?! It's not your first time experiencing it, is it? Well, duh. Of course not. But really, there's no more lagu to my taste and my fave mangas lambat sangat nak update, wehhhh. Tolonglah. I don't feel like doing anything but I hate it. I know. Don't remind me. "You've got BIG problems, hun."

Gila!!! Bahang matahari tidak menahannnya daripada terus berlari. Rasa macam baru putus cinta. Padahal sebelum ni dah memang dia yang bertepuk sebelah tangan. Air mata mengalir dengan sangat deras. Langkah akhirnya terhenti. Matanya memandang tepat ke hadapan. Lake Valley. Tasik luas terbentang di hadapan mata. Sedikit sebanyak mengurangkan amarahnya. Perlahan-lahan dia menapak ke arah sebuah gazebo. Badannya dihempap pada salah satu tiang. Tyra memeluk tubuh. Mata dipejamkan rapat. Bibir bawah digigit kuat. Perit. Biarlah. Hati lagi perit. Air mata tak henti-henti mengalir. Perlahan dia akhirnya terduduk. Dia menarik kedua-dua lututnya rapat ke muka. Air matanya kini membasahi pipi. Heelllppp....   What do I do now?  Apa yang dia patut buat? Dia dah tak ada sesiapa dalam dunia ni. Mama dah la tengah marah sebab telefon kena rampas. Kawan-kawan pulak masa ni tentu semua nak rehat . Tak nak sesiapa kacau. I have no one. .. Dan air mata masih mengalir... Tiba-tiba ...

SALAM UOLLLLSSSSS!!!!(again) It's me here(again). And today I just want to share with the whole world about my brain. Now, I'm not gonna say "everyone has two parts in their brain; the left and the right." Bla bla bla. Yada yada yada. Like, the whole world knows that la. So I'm not gonna explain any scientific thing about my brain. One thing though, I really wanna share with all of you about MY brain. Since this is my journal after all, kan? Maigawd , guys. I just realised something. This post is soooo formal. Like, you guys must be thinking, "are you writing to your teacher or something???????" Wellll, I can't run from ME. So, however much I try to be artistic, I am still ME. A left-brained person. With analytical skills and the passion for maths and science. And however much I try to put my heart and soul out for maths, I can't, cause in the other hand I am still using the upper part. Which practically means I am creative. Itu sangat po...